O.M.G!

Two years passed and now its 2015! didn't blog a thing last year.. 

well here's my update : I am going through quater life crisis! toodles~ 

see you next year.. probably... XD

LISTEN-LISTEN-LISTEN, I SPEAK YOU LISTEN.

well its 2013... and i am writing my first blog of the year with the hot issues of the months... its LISTEN LISTEN LISTEN.. I SPEAK YOU LISTEN.... well ate first i dont really give a damn about this shit... but then... when everyone around me started to talk about this i began more and more curious...and thus today i just watched this video for the first time and here i have attached this video for the sake of references ans so this is what i have to say....

WARNING : THIS BLOG MAY SOUND VERY PERSONAL..... Xp

well first of all Sharifah Zohar never did answer Miss Bawani's questions... to me she answered none! all her so called answers were not related to any of the questions given. secondly i did not know that by shaking ones hand of a woman for that matter means that you are showing you respect to another person as a women?

and speaking of respect... i thought in school we were taught that we (no matter what age we are) should give respect to others first (no matte how old or young they are from us) before you aspect them to respect yourself... further more.. the respect that we shows to our elders (grandparents, parents, aunties, uncles or any one in our FAMILY) is because we know them we were raised to respect them especially.. but not so much to a stranger or someone you are not close with... for example if a leader is younger than his/her subordinates does that means that the older subordinates are free to disrespect their leader? NO! a leader is a leader no matter how old or young he/she is. and so does this video scenario.. you Sharifah Zohar have no respect for her at all! by pointing your finger to Miss Bawani's face and saying this Listen listen i speak you listen bullshit you my dear have shown a disrespect to her there... and plus you stop her from finishing what she has to say... and yet you wanted her to let you speak? and listen to your bullshit? another point of your disrespect was you moving away the mic from Miss Bawani... what's the matter? afraid that she would build up the courage to out spoken you when you speak?

Dear Sharifah Zohar, if you have nothing relevant in your mind to fight back what your opponent is saying that i advice that YOU should Listen first and let her speak. This girl came with full preparation and you came with empty handed.. and yet you still wanna talk rubbish... and now people make jokes using your rubbish talk...


and as i recalled.. Sharifah Zohar did mention that we should not compare Malaysia to other countries.. WHY THE HELL NOT??? you compared us HUMANS with ANIMALS? that is more ridiculous! of course you CAN compare Malaysia other countries if not how in the world could we strive to be a better country? even cats compete and compared with each other.. let alone humans... and when humans compete and compared with each others doesn't this means that automatically we would compared our countries with others.. why? because there are other humans in other countries that's why! sheesh!


okay... i have to say i agree with you about animal's rights and human rights... but my dear that has nothing to do with any of what Miss Bawani had said. All animals, insects, fishes all have problems... humans too... but you are not exactly talking about animal's rights are you? and as you might also know animals has their own way of solving their problems... the shark did not know how we human are complaining so much about them... we're on land they're in the sea... and the last time i check shark don't speak human.. therefore they do not understand us and this goes to other animals out there... okay forget about this.. i'm out of topic.

to the audiences... kenapa lah korang nih macam lalang?? aku hairan lah... when Miss Bawani was giving her speech/ her hak bersuara korang bukan main lagi sorak bagai... siap angguk angguk lagi.. kasi tepu tangan lagi... tapi bila this Sharifah Zohar said nonsense n bullshitting her hak bersuara korang sorak sorak jugak.... mana satu korang nih??? lalang sungguh... kalau tak paham maksud lalang di sini sila rujuk balik buku peribahasa zaman sekolah rendah dulu. sedih aku tgk korang... is it true that you all agree to as to what the government has given to you?? let me assure you that in few years time after you finish graduating n studying and struggling looking for jobs out there all of you well most will be super ungrateful to the government and you will complain about how you don't want to pay your ptptn back... or you would say paying this ptptn is very membebankan and so forth. trust me i've seen people like you... lalang.

well i'm not siding with anyone.. i'm just stating tha facts of what i see and hear in this video... if i misjudge or misunderstand anything then i'm sorry... but so far as i'm concern i am not touching any political issues here...

why am i just a girl?

hello! i guess its been awhile since my last blog... heheh... oh well lets get started with my rants as usual...

i'm a girl.. duh! but sometimes i wonder why am i a girl... i know its God's will and i was also the one who agreed to be born as a girl in this world... but sometimes i wonder why am i a girl?? what makes me agree to be born as a girl and not a boy?? why?? you see as a girl.. no matter how tough you may be or look or act... no matter what u do you will always have that soft heart... you will always have that soft spot for that one jerk... no matter how rough i act or how ignorant i am... with just one HELLO from him i will transform from a rock into a flower that is easily wilt n crushed! sometimes i wish i have the heart of a guy... so instead of me being used by them.. i would be the one using them instead.... wouldnt it be fair? well i guess not...

*sighs~*

i really hope i could not think about him anymore... just forget bout him... but somehow i just cant... why? why? why?? he's nothing.. he's not rich... handsome or hot... and plus he has a gilrfriend! then why? why he does all this things to me?? why would he make me fall for him.. he knows i love him... he knows i care... but that doesnt mean he could just use my love n care for him anytime he needs some....

*sighs~*

i really really want to know who am i to him? what am i to him? he may think that he what he does to me right now is nothing.... he could be just playing around using me... he could just treats me just like one of his sisters... but i dont think that way!!!! no matter how i try to fool myself that i'm just like a sister to him i just can't fool myself to that extend... i am still this girl... a stranger whom he met and be friended years ago...... no matter how hard i tell myself that he's just using me and taking me for granted... no matter how i forced myself to forget about him... no matter how much i try not to think about him.... with a single "Hai... how are you dear?~" he will always always wins! my heart... no matter how much i try not to melt.. no matter how hard trained it to be tough... it always melt.... just with those simple words.... DAMN!

now i feel like crying my heart out... why am i just a girl??!

*sighs~*

p/s: i know this may seems like nothing to any of you out there... but its just my rants... if u read all of this then thank you for your time reading my crappy blog... for those who thinks that i should worry over all those world problems.. well i do... i'm just not in the mood to rant any of it! ;p

life:studies:jobs:moeny:success

now.. first and foremost.. i would like to say happy 2012!! as you can see it's been a whole year since i last blogged.. didn't even blog a thing in 2011 at all! amazing huh! well i guess it was all twitter's fault and a part of tumblr's fault too...hee~ ;) well.. now that i've greeted the year in my blog lets get started with the title now shall we? =)

as you can see.. the topics in my title are somewhat related to each other.. according to my life.. i'm not sure how your life is like.. but this is how mine goes...

well it all started with life.. life as i know it is when we ware invented... we were once a two single cell organism combined into one.. wait! is a sperm and an ovum a single cell organism? oh well.. correct me if i'm wrong.. thank you~... and as the the process of becoming and embryo and then turn into a fetus.. then God the Almighty gave us a thing called Soul... and with that our soul developed through time where we also gain some feelings which i think is when we kicked and punched and spin around in our mummy's tummy... (now thinking back.. how awesome was that! i bet you'll never experienced that in real life again!) and a thing called personal traits where we get from both of our parents genetic... and so the right moment came and we were born and thus our life began on that very second... we started to breathe the first oxygen gas in our life and we cried for the first time then too... and as we grew we develop more things such as feelings, emotions, physical attraction and in my case a little big thing called FAT! ha ha ha! we are now what people always say the sons and daughters of Adam and Eve or should i say great great great great great and more great sons and daughters... ;) and then trough life we started to learn about things in which i love to call studies!

studies for me is a thing that i've been doing literally since i was born.. now why do i say that? well.. after months of being at home mom is going back to work.. but wait! who is going to take care of me then? i was only a few months old! oh no! well fret not my solder sister (well actually she's like a foster sister) she worked at a nursery/child care and so since both of my biological sister were also there to study kindy stuff... i was also being brought there just so that my foster sister would be able to take care of me.. so i could proudly say that i've been in school for my whole 23 years of living! now try and beat that! ha ha ha! well.. after the childcare then there's the kindergarten stuff... and after kindy there's primary school and secondary school then there's university... so total up all of my life i've been studying in a school for a total of 22 years! from there i discovered that i hate political history, i love english, maths, art, literature and science... and i also discover that i love to talk, sing and dance.. but then i'm not so good at it... i met new people and they became friends... some became close friends in ways you just cannot imagine and some are just friends where we still keep in touch.. thanks to a social network which is famously known as Facebook!... you could say that some love me, some need me, some i need more then they need me, some just used me, and some hates me.. well i guess no one can ever avoid being hate by someone i guess... hmmm... =/ from going to schools and a university i learned on how to cope with everyone with all types of personality... and when i mean all i really do mean all! especially the GIRLS! i tell you.. girls can be such a pain to be friends with... some back stabs you.. some gossips about you.. some just adores you so that they can use you and so much more! don't get me wrong i don't hate them... but somehow amazingly i could tolerate with all those nonsense and gets along with everyone... well different person have a different approach.. and i think that if there is someone out there been observing all of my moves i think he/she will know that my personality is different with each and everyone of the people i've met! but trust me.. i am being myself most of the time.. as much as i could with everyone! don't hate me now~ 0=) anyway, with studies i gain more knowledge and experience in life... and my motto have always been

"study for life not study for exams"

... so far in my school life i have never actually studied fully for my exams.. i guess that explains why my result was not up to standards.. but in the end i was able to further my studies in universities... it was a local U but who cares! then after finished my diploma of three years.. i realised that i have been wasting my time by doing something that i don't even like.... i had fun in Uni but just not the study part... well like what people say : what past is past.. so then i decided to take something that is not more than a hobby to me for my degree... but it took me a while to discovers that it is just not the kind of thing for me to study.. as you know.. people of my intelligence learned fast.. and things are getting bored for me during that time as the things that i studied was the things that i've known way before i entered my degree class... then what did i do? i called it quits.. oh well.. went back home.. took a break for a few months... get over with mt diploma graduation day and then.. the big things in life happens... i've got a job! yippie right? but not for me...

well as for jobs.. i've worked for a while before i entered my uni life... but then it was such a different job.. i worked as a kindy teacher for a few month before i entered uni life and i've had my practical for five months in my fifth semester of my studies... but the job that i got after graduation was an interior designer job.. wow! i think that is the expression of people when i told them what i was working as... well as excited as others are about my jobs i was not... i never like designs when i studied it so why would i be interested in the job? well.. it was my parents who kept on asking and asking and asking and asking me to worked as and ID.. well at least for a few month.. that's what they said.. but i know deep down they wanted me to just stick with the job until i'm old, married and lived with 15 children! well that's a bit exaggerating.. ha ha ha... but then knowing me.. i will never make my self stuck with that job.. so i went on job hunting online... actually there are some things that's going on in the company that makes me wanna move out... but i have no rights to tell it in here... so shhhh~ then after exactly 5 months and a half i moved to another company... also an interior design company but with a slightly bigger pay of only RM 200 difference than the previous one.... but life as we know it is unexpected.. at the new company i spent more time online with facebooking, twittering, and downloading songs and korean drama... then i realised that i was used to being in a hectic working environment before and so such free time makes me feel bored while working.. and sales was slow as the new company price was much higher than the previous company.. so i decided to left the company and took a break instead... well life was kind of a blur when i was working for both ID company for i spent almost 70% of my life at the office and thinking bout my work both designing and worrying about my clients like and dislike... and home was only a place for me to sleep and bath before i start another day working... that was what my life's all about at that time... work and client... and my brother always told me this "you are always working even on weekends! all you do is work and i barely even met you at home! you're so boring now~".... so then i realised that i have totally lost my life... so what was my break you're wondering? well it was me working as a kindergarten teacher.. again! at the same kindy i taught before only at a different branch.. well the pay was not much but it was okay i guess?... i spent most of my time wondering what i should do... should i further my study and get that degree? or should i just work for another few more years and then think about studies... as i started working at the kindy life was gradually coming back again... i was able to spent more time with my family and i know what was going on around the house... lets just say that i am back being a busy body again~ ;) during the time i worked as a kindy teacher i fell in love with the job.. i fell in love with the children and everything that i do there... but then i have also decided that i wanna continue my studies starting in that year too.. and this was the year 2011.... work was full of action at the kindy... a non-stop working action.. the only break would be the lunch break...so as i started my part time studies i realised that i cant focus on my studies and at that moment for me studying was much more important than work.. so i decided to stop... i miss the children of course! but i do not want to flunk my studies since i haven't get the hang of things... so then i quit yet another job... (just so you know i have never been on bad terms with anyone at any of the place that i've been working.. even with my bos.. ) but now after a while of studying i've got the hang of things.. and i think that i can juggle both work and study at the same time... so what do i do?? i started to hunt down jobs again.. but for now... its been 3 months since and i still have no luck..

well now.. here i am.. 23 years of living going to be 24 this year and i've been unemployed for 3 months which feels like a whole year for me and still searching for jobs.. part tie or full time... and i have money issues... why? coz i'm not working so i don't earn any money anymore! ha ha ha! thank God i'm still staying with my parents.. but i do feel guilty sometime whenever i asked for some money from them.. he he he... oh well... don't fret mom and dad! i will be successful one day and i'll repay every ringgit and every cent that i owe you when the day comes! ;)

p/s: do you think that my blog has no point? well.. they never do! =D

Appreciation.. ^^

Story of Appreciation

One young academically excellent person went to apply for a managerial position in a big company. 

He passed the first interview, the director did the last interview, made the last decision. 

The director discovered from the CV that the youth's academic achievements were excellent all the way, from the secondary school until the postgraduate research, never had a year when he did not score. 

The director asked, "Did you obtain any scholarships in school?" the youth answered "none". 

The director asked, " Was it your father who paid for your school fees?" The youth answered, "My father passed away when I was one year old, it was my mother who paid for my school fees. 

The director asked, " Where did your mother work?" The youth answered, "My mother worked as clothes cleaner. The director requested the youth to show his hands. The youth showed a pair of hands that were smooth and perfect. 

The director asked, " Have you ever helped your mother wash the clothes before?" The youth answered, "Never, my mother always wanted me to study and read more books. Furthermore, my mother can wash clothes faster than me. 

The director said, "I have a request. When you go back today, go and clean your mother's hands, and then see me tomorrow morning.* 

The youth felt that his chance of landing the job was high. When he went back, he happily requested his mother to let him clean her hands. His mother felt strange, happy but with mixed feelings, she showed her hands to the kid. 

The youth cleaned his mother's hands slowly. His tear fell as he did that. It was the first time he noticed that his mother's hands were so wrinkled, and there were so many bruises in her hands. Some bruises were so painful that his mother shivered when they were cleaned with water. 

This was the first time the youth realized that it was this pair of hands that washed the clothes everyday to enable him to pay the school fee. The bruises in the mother's hands were the price that the mother had to pay for his graduation, academic excellence and his future. 

After finishing the cleaning of his mother hands, the youth quietly washed all the remaining clothes for his mother. 

That night, mother and son talked for a very long time. 

Next morning, the youth went to the director's office. 

The Director noticed the tears in the youth's eyes, asked: " Can you tell me what have you done and learned yesterday in your house?" 

The youth answered, " I cleaned my mother's hand, and also finished cleaning all the remaining clothes' 

The Director asked, " please tell me your feelings." 

The youth said,

No. 1, I know now what is appreciation. Without my mother, there would not the successful me today.

No. 2, by working together and helping my mother, only I now realize how difficult and tough it is to get something done.

No. 3, I have come to appreciate the importance and value of family relationship. 

The director said, " This is what I am looking for to be my manager. 

I want to recruit a person who can appreciate the help of others, a person who knows the sufferings of others to get things done, and a person who would not put money as his only goal in life. You are hired. 

Later on, this young person worked very hard, and received the respect of his subordinates. Every employee worked diligently and as a team. The company's performance improved tremendously. 

A child, who has been protected and habitually given whatever he wanted, would develop "entitlement mentality" and would always put himself first. He would be ignorant of his parent's efforts. When he starts work, he assumes that every person must listen to him, and when he becomes a manager, he would never know the sufferings of his employees and would always blame others. For this kind of people, who may be good academically, may be successful for a while, but eventually would not feel sense of achievement. He will grumble and be full of hatred and fight for more. If we are this kind of protective parents, are we really showing love or are we destroying the kid instead?* 

You can let your kid live in a big house, eat a good meal, learn piano, watch a big screen TV. But when you are cutting grass, please let them experience it. After a meal, let them wash their plates and bowls together with their brothers and sisters. It is not because you do not have money to hire a maid, but it is because you want to love them in a right way. You want them to understand, no matter how rich their parents are, one day their hair will grow gray, same as the mother of that young person. The most important thing is your kid learns how to appreciate the effort and experience the difficulty and learns the ability to work with others to get things done.

: another story i've received in my mail..  =)

why burn the Quran? just something to share~ ^^

ON  BURNING  OF  QURAN 

Who is burning the Quran? A Christian priest? Ask a question, if I write the name of Jesus Christ on a piece of paper 29 times and give it to him to burn it, will he burn it? If I write the name of Moses on a piece of paper and give it to a Jew, will he burn it? What they intend to burn is the same.

In the Quran the name of Jesus Christ is mentioned with great Honour 29 times and the name of Moses with dignity 129 times, while the name of Prophet Mohammad (peace be upon all of them) is mentioned just 4 times. In addition all the 24 prophets mentioned in the Quran are there in the Bible. Make them aware that they are burning the names of Jesus Christ, Moses and all 24 prophets.

The problem is none of them have ever cared to read the Quran. My request to them is to read the Quran’s translation in their own language (easily available free in mosques and in Islamic Centers) and then decide whether burning the Quran is justified or not.

I may assure them that they will highly regret in their lives when at a later date they read it. All the allegations of immorality on Mother Mary, Jesus Christ and other prophets mentioned in different books have been very neatly refuted in the Quran. Mother Mary has been given the highest Honour amongst all the women of the World.

Read it you will be enlightened. Birth of Moses and his marriage has been described in the most respectful manner. Not a single derogatory word has been used in the Quran for any of the prophets those mentioned in the Bible.

Why burn the Quran? Burn those books in which baseless allegations have been put on many of the prophets of God. That will be fully justified.

Once you read its translation, you will be convinced that Quran is the best book on earth, every word is of God, the God of Adam, Abraham, Moses and Jesus (peace be upon them all). Not a single word has changed in 1431 years. It is in its original,   pristine form preserved in Turkey and in Leningrad . 

It is totally a wrong concept that it was written by the prophet Muhammad (pbuh). How can a person who did not know how to read anything or write, can write a book of over 600 pages without any mistake, describing the advance theory of science and space? He could not even put his signature on the letters which he sent to the heads of states, he used to stamp them with a seal of his name. Moreover the Quran is in the highest literary form of Arabic language, which he did not speak; he used to speak colloquial Arabic.

How can Quran be considered man made; a book which describes intricate embryological development of a fetus, space science, complicated oceanography and in over 1400 years no one has found any contradiction or any mistake? Every word of the Quran is the word of God, the same God of Adam, Abraham Moses and Jesus Christ. How can anyone even think of burning the words of your own God? 

What is radical about Islam or the teachings of the Quran? Without reading it you call it radical!

Bring a single copy of the Bible which is in its original form. What amount of changes is made in the Bible by men to the words of God? Who gave them the authority in the very first place to change the words of God, revise and re-revise the Bible? But still we do not call it radical. We also have appeal to the Muslims of the whole world don’t even think of burning a single copy of the Bible in retaliation because the Bible has the names of our 24 prophets whom all we respect from the core of our hearts. 

Coming down to the most crucial point of 9/11: The allegation is again on the Muslim, so they decided to burn the Quran, stop building an Islamic Center in Manhattan near Ground Zero. Have a look at the documentaries made on the truth of 9/11. These documentaries are proved without the shadow of doubt there in the scenario of 9/11 in the year 2001, no Muslim was involved. In one of the documentary it said loud and clear  that no Muslim is involved in 9/11.

Amazing, all the documentaries and films are made by Americans and that too Christians. Go through each and every documentary on U-Tube, you will be amazed, who did it - you have to decide yourself of course not any Muslim?  The preparation was done three months before 9/11. If anyone considers these documentaries are not authentic, why can’t they take the producers to the courts and involve FBI to investigate how dare they can make such movie which has tarnished the image of America all over the world and the whole world had sunk in deep recession shattering the economy of all the countries.

What benefit they achieved by doing so? Thousands of Americans were killed and even are being killed today. Trillions of Dollars have burnt in smoke, millions of innocent people were killed and other multimillions suffered. Why don’t these preachers of peace go after them who did it? Why Muslims and why Quran? 

: got this from an email sent to me.. =)

MY opinion on ....

after i went out with me mates this evening i was inspired to:

1) update my blog

2) came up a topic to share on my blog..

hahah!! it's been a while since my last post... and just today i was being presented with a business proposal about e-education or like what they named it 'webucation' [erma jgn kecik hati ya~ this is only my opinion.. heheh! ^^]  


okay the thing is.. those online education is good.. not that i'm against it.. but for it to be the main method of studying for me is not a good idea.. i mean what happens to the good old fashion way of studying? where it teaches you about hard work and at the same time you learned about the things that you're studying.. this brings me to this: nowadays people are trying hard to make their children smart in education... like in maths or science and stuff.. don't they know that this gives the children stress.. can you imagine a 6 year old  already have stress? isn't it to much for a child? aren't you supposed to start gaining stress when you are like at the end of your teens??

being smart is good.. its a gift.. you use it well you get success.. you don't use it its your lost. but not all people are being born smart.. where this kind of people needs to study hard to achieve their goal.. without hard work they will be a nobody with nothing in their future even if they're born in a rich family.

but i found that forcing your child to score A in every exams on every subject is ridiculous! YES! to me it is.. you see no matter how many A's your child get in an exam doesn't mean they'll ace in life. and here i thought that we study for your life. i have been living with that in my mind.. no matter what you get in your exams does nothing to your life.. yes you can get into the college that you wanted.. yes you'll be look up to by the people around you and yes you'll have a good record in your studies and so on.. like i said not all people are born smart.. so they will be a portion of people out there who scored all this by just memorising all the things that they need to remember for them to answer the questions given in the examinations. where this will make them end up just memorising the facts where they should actually understand the facts. (okay somehow i'm lost here.. hahah! =D)

i have observes students out there (where ever it is i end up studying ;p) most of them who got good grades in school doesn't get good grades while in university and some doesn't do well while they had started their working life.. why? this is what i think the reason is : usually those Ace student nowadays are to preoccupied with their studies that they end up having 'cultural shcok' when they're in the outside life. emotionally, psychically and mentally. why? because what you study in school doesn't teach you what life outside of school is all about.

(okay lari dari my main purpose here, haha!)

now back to what i wanted to say.. what i wanted to say was.. what happen to 'study for life'? study for your future.. nowadays all i see is parents trying their hard to earned money to get their children to enrolled into some prestige school somewhere, where they actually teach the same subject like in any other schools.what difference does it make? okay they may use a different approach.. but some other kids from some normal government school could do better than those kids from the prestige school anyway~ so why the fuss? i see that most parents is working their ass up just to make sure that their child wont live a hard life like what they have been through or so,.. i think~ ^^ and this is making the kids getting used to being 'spoon feed' that they forgot what 'hard work' is all about and how important it really is in life. they will be expecting everything to be spoon fed to them 'coz thats what they have been growing up to all those years. of course there's the saying "you are never to late to study" but to me this saying doesn't apply to 'hard work'. to me hard work is something you develop when you were a child while you are in a process of learning regardless on what's the subject.

anyway, i have been hearing people keep on saying that kids should not be pressure with studies and all this shit.. but why do i still see people are still forcing their kids to be smart/clever. i mean what ever happens to leave the child be? let them decide what they want to be? all i see now is that the children is living up their parents dream.. the dream that they once upon a time wish they could get.

(i'm getting of course again..ah! who cares! ^^)

well to me just support what the child is interested in and not forcing them to be what they're not is what we're supposed to do.. but hen again who am i to say all this? who is going to listen and respond to me? i'm just a nobody in this world.. well i'm a nobody for now.. ^^

well i'm having the so-called writer's block.. hah! somehow i have forgotten what more i wanted to say .. so i'll stop for now~  till next time. ;)