curiousity....

"you love her not because she's beautiful, she's beautiful because you love her." - m. dwi andhika in me vs highe heels.

is it true?? is there any guy would actually agree with this?? would he agree?? how do guys see in us girls anyway?? curiousity kills the cat.. everywhere i go all i see is guys looking for a beautiful hot girls.. but there are some guys who just go for girls that is not that good looking.. hmmm maybe she's rich.. coz mainly its like that when it comes to this case... i do not know... coz somehow they said that it is LOVE..and that love is blind.. or is it us that are blinded by love?? hmmmm....

apakah kebenaran pada ayat itu?..
what is the truth behind those words?

my old writtings..

none..

as she walk on byshe saw nothing but the sky
try to figure out why
she just cant do anything but sigh..
she walk and walk and keep on walking untill the light are out in the sky
the street was dark as the night go on by
she come to a solution at the corner of the winding road...

she ran as fast as she could
she screamed as loud as she can
but there's still no one can hear her
she 's now at the end of road
with only one solution in her hand.

as morning came by
the one that loved her most found her lying by roads
he cry and screamed and cry some more
of the guilt that has been playing with him for so long..
her body was pale as she swam the pool of blood the night before...

one of shakespears sonnets.

When thou shalt be disposed to set me light,
And place my merit in the eye of scorn,
Upon thy side against myself I'll fight,
And prove thee virtuous, though thou art forsworn.
With mine own weakness being best acquainted,
Upon thy part I can set down a story Of faults conceal'd,
wherein I am attainted,
That thou in losing me shalt win much glory:
And I by this will be a gainer too;
For bending all my loving thoughts on thee,
The injuries that to myself I do,
Doing thee vantage, double-vantage me.
Such is my love,
to thee I so belong,
That for thy right myself will bear all wrong.

drake bell

i like him from the moment i saw him in the amanda show..being the stupid rock cool dude..hee..
he's a cool guitarist, pianist and an actor..
even though i've seen and heard alot of good musicians plays with their nice guitars somehow he was the one that make me think that i should actually learn how to play one after the loooonngg ooohh and ahh-ing days of mine drooling over guitars and guitarist....
so i did and now i can play some songs.. but i'm not that good.. i'm still trying though..still learning.. those far reached chords with my not-so-long fingers... hee! =)
now back to the main topic..
drake bell... how i wish there's actually a guy like him.. almost..here in my home town. if there is one like him they would be over-the-head of themselves even if they dont they would either be too old for me or just too far fetched... haiya.. hahahah!!

well... another stupid blog from me.. hihi!!

p/s: i just love drake bell he's my insparation and motivation to play my guitar (sounds corny.. ahah!!)..his music rocks! and + he is hot! aha!! =D
*droollss* hee =)

just for JAI

as i arrived i was wondering about you for awhile
where are you now..
no one seems to know anything about you and your whereabouts.
then the day arrived when i was destine to met you..
i was in a midst of talking when i lift up my head and i saw you...
i was silenced by you.
somehow at that very moment i froze for awhile while staring at you..
you stared at me as if you know me from somewhere
and so do i...
i remember you..
we went to the same school once..
you were my senior and i was your junior...
your look are exactly the same
only your hairstyle are much more better.. hee =)
your looks, your gesture, your walk..
everything about you remains the same..
even the effect on me every time i saw you is still the same..
the ga..ga.. me when i saw you...
everytime i met you
you will stare at me..
i so will i to you..
but somehow i would be speachless...
every single time..
i wanted to greet you..
i wanted to introduced myself to you and would wanted us to be friends..
but somehow the word just gone with the wind..
when ever i saw you or think of you..
theres this heat in me of wanting you so badly
that i would do anything just to have you to be just mine..
and theres also this urge of wanting to see you again
and finally have those lost word coming back to my mouth again..
so that i could say it to you...
i wish i have another chance to meet you again..
and i promise i'll try to walk up to you and say hi
or it would be the last... (i hope not.. hee =D)

singapore.

as i reached singapore the first thing i noticed was the landscape..
it was nice and very well planed.. same goes to the town planning... theres pedestrian walks for the people.. everywhere.. the public transportation are in order..
as i walk the street of ochard road the people are mostly tourists... but just that one night i've listen alot of languages.. french, japanese, chinese, arabic, korean.... you name it.. i heard all of it... some i dont even know what language it was.. so then i conclude that all of the people all over the world are in singapore.. so far i see that singapore is a very safe place to live one..
this is my second trip actually.. the first time i cant remember anything.. now maybe that i'm older and sort of wiser i observe the environment that singapore brings.. it is nice.. though it's a bit crowded with people... but i can live with it.. compare to KL... i dont think i can stay there for a living... for holidays yes but not live there.. i would suffocate.. heh!
okay.. back to the topic.. i like how the people dont really care what you're wearing or who you are... and the sales person in the shops are good at their jobs..everyone does... they try to serve and give you good services in their job.... they try their very best to treat you... een when they wasn't you can see it in their eyes that they're doing their best in their work when they were serving the others.. but somehow some people just doesnt see it.. it kind of reminded me of people in japan.. though i've never been there.. but i guess singapore is as good as it gets.. hmm.. i think?? ahahha!!
the sceneries the landscape are nice... i just cant help myself to adore it.. and i do meant what i said..
the taxi drivers are friendly.. they know how to intertained their passangers... but just the driving that made me feel nauseous for a while... hee...
oh well... its just me.. i love travelling.. but i prefer more of sightseeing than shopping.. hee.. =)
i dont know what you think of singapore but this is what i think... hee.. =)

alone time.. needed.

my eyes are begging me to cry.. but somehow i can't. even if i forced my self.
somehow i feel like a problamatic person.. which i dont think that i am one..
my head is in a mess tonight. after a good talk with a good friend i've realised that i'm in danger.. emotionally.. and probably mentally too... i cant just turn my self to just anyone... i'm not the type where i trust people easily..
my eyes are burning... obviously i need to shed atleast a tear. but i cant.. as i look in my mirror it is getting red and more red by the minutes.. and yet no tears.. what is wrong with me.. its not that i'm a cry baby.. but somehow something told me that a good cry could do me good. well atleast for the night... i'm alone tonight.. in know my parents and anyone who actually cares about me would be angry with me.. but i just need a time alone.. just me.. and the "teevee" and "me buks" and "zee inthernetz". heheh...
years of bottled up feelings still hasn't been spill... thats why i said that i am in grave danger emotionally and mentally..
well maybe the cause of all this that i am too nice (which what majority of my friends & family always quote-about me-) i am not sure. maybe i am...
hmmm...

life as i know it..

life as i know it.. is like cars on high ways... its where you stand.. fast lane? so-so lane? or slow lane?

on the fast lane you get to be the first of everything.. you'll be excelent and etc.. all those "waah!" kinda things.. like your job.. your studies.. your status.. blahblahblah..and you usually ends up missing loads of things in life that in the end you regret..and somehow when you're too old to do those things that you miss.. you go try to apply your un-reachable dreams to your children...

on the so-so lane.. a.k.a the average lane is normal.. everything you do is normal.. you take things on a normal pace.. you dont rush too much on your success.. you have your life normal-ly..you neither live up your dreams nor does you really live your dream life.. get it?

on the slow lane.. you take things slowly... you live your life to the fullest.. you dont mind if you dont succeed first.. but its the experience that makes you wise... you try not to miss anything in life...if you could..you wanna do all the things in life before it ends...and usually people in this lane somehow can live up their dream life once they succeed..

or so i think.. hee..=D